Note to Reader, The music links below had inspired me to write this piece it may be nice to listen to the music and read at the same time to relax yourself. Thanks.
Time seems to elude me when I become myself in this state that I'm in... I fall into a trance and I fall staring at nothing or well at least I'm sure that's what other people see when they look at me sitting in the corner of a cafe just dosing off looking into a direction not looking at the screen but they see my fingers dart and poke at the board with letters on them...
What they don't know is that I feel that moment. Every second of the day seems normal, what you and I feel most of the time... The truth is we're walking aimlessly most of the time, more or less I believe and you really don't completely know it because you're distracted with some task what really does nothing for you in the long run life wise...
Life wise...
Everything seems so ladder climbing... and mountain peaking... moves you make to flourish and guarantee your success... school education to make things work out in this imagined world... People who create and decide the needs and generate the wants and all the material things... It seems great I don't argue that... but I've always wondered what the point of it all is... when you realize that having the newest shoes means nothing but a momentary adoration of something; even though you yourself my actually very well like it and enjoy its' company; you begin to wonder what else is just the same... What is the same... Is everything the same? Is everything just a thing occupying space and time... a page or a sentence or a line or a word in the book of your life...
Well anyways life wise... I've said it but I haven't explained it...
An age old questions, "What is the meaning of life?"
There is no answer to that. We can make things up to give us direction... and even though there are a million things to life I still feel like there's something more... but maybe I'm wrong... Maybe there really isn't and we are supposed to choose what piece we are on this playground. On this big rock with metal and brick walls and big pools of blue water.
It's all up for thinking and the more you think about it the more you feel alone... but everyone actually is alone most of the time. No matter how many times you're out with your friends or with your family... you're still alone because no one will ever really feel what you feel. There is no other you to know you and say "I know exactly how you feel and you know why I can say that? It's because I'm you and you are me and we can see what each other sees." It's all plain as day and the only problem is that you don't want to believe it. It's normal to not wanting to believe it. So many are lost, so many are just in denial. It's easy to go with what's in front of you... presented to you in such an easy manor all you have to do is say yes to it.. but that feeling will come and you'll ask yourself... "What else is there?"
Let me know when you find the answer because I assure you... I'd like to know.
Thoughts Inspired by Alexandre Desplat's "Meeting Daisy" & "Sunrise on Pontchartrain"
Enjoy,
Jep
